So this is embarrassing. I’m just gonna come right out and say it. I pretend Jesus is singing this over me. And it lands me on the floor, sobbing, every time. Let’s look at the lyrics.
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall?
But watching you stand alone,
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow.
This first verse reminds me of Jesus in the Garden of Gethsemane. The turning point of history is coming. The moment when Heaven and Earth would again be seen as one organism. Jesus asks that the cup be passed from him but he says, “not my will…” He watched us trying to make it on our own for thousand of years. He knew our fear, our frustration, of trying to appease a god that seemed to be far away.
I have died every day waiting for you
Darling, don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
This is the heart of Jesus. The Bible says that the lamb was slain before the foundation of the world. It was plan A all along. It was with great and exceeding joy and pleasure that God became man and died for us. It was prophesied in types and shadows in the old covenant and was fulfilled two thousand years ago. Passover was one shadow. Abraham being asked to kill his son Isaac was another. It was even on the same mountain! (I bet you thought it was some power play of a power hungry god!) This act of supreme love was acted out over and over again for thousands of years. So, in a sense, he did die every day waiting for us. What is he waiting for? He’s waiting for us to realize that there was never any separation between God and man. He’s waiting for us to realize that we have God inside of us. “Don’t be afraid”, He says, “For I have loved you for thousands of years.” “Perfect love casts out fear,” the Bible says. What is perfect love? It is Jesus.
Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What’s standing in front of me
Every hour has come to this
The Bible says, “For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.” He truly will not let anything take away what’s standing in front of him. Because it’s all HIS! Here again, we are at the turning point of history. Every hour has come to this. Every hour since looks back to this.
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
Ah, the bridge. This is my favorite part of the song. In the Garden of Eden, God asked, “Where are you?” God, being all knowing, knew the physical location of Adam and Eve. However, he sensed that their hearts had been blinded. A line of communication was suddenly gone. It was like Adam and Eve lost all the contacts in their phones. They could still call on God but they lost his number. But God’s plan was still in effect. God still had their number. He knew that in the fullness of time, our hearts would be turned back to him. Our contacts would be restored. And two thousand years ago, it was all fully restored.
Personally, I grew up feeling like no one wanted or needed me. To listen to Jesus sing this over me is so powerful. The God of the universe was and is actively pursuing me. He loves me. He wants me. I am the one lost sheep. The one he leaves the flock to go find.